6.7.08

thinking

I've been thinking (and worrying) about a lot of stuff. It's been pretty tiring. Let me explain.
Some of what I have been thinking of:
school: work,friends, CCA, time management
home: chores, parents, sibling, fairness, pressure, arguments
church: sunbeam, areas to serve in, am I doing too much?, friends, JD, WEB, woodlands

I don't know about you, your life could be super stressful, super difficult, and you might think all my problems are shallow and insignificant. But to me their pretty big. There are lots more stuff I didn't write there. Like my prefect nominee thing. That's needs thought too. Whether I'm suitable for one. Whether I'll benefit the school. Whether I'm willing. And quitting french. I've been agonising over that for the past 3 months. I have quit, because I think I'm really too busy. Pressure: I know. I was the super cool girl last year. The girl who wasn't a single bit nervous for PSLE. Who wasn't even nervous when they put the paper in front of me. Somehow, now, in SC SEC with all this competition, I am getting really hyped-up. I'm already doing very well. But no longer am I content with my own marks. (In P6 I couldn't care less) I have this...DRIVE. A drive to be the first. No, not in a bad way. But because I know I can do it.
That's why I say life would have been easier if I got 250 instead of 268 for PSLE :) joking

oops. over shot. Have to go get ready for church, then wake up David. HOPEFULLY he'll co-operate today. But he's a pretty cool guy, my brother. Except that he's blurer and slower than me.
Now, that's extreme.